Saturday, January 31, 2004

Life

Sometime I really feels that life is really a short story but nonetheless we have to keep quite.
We can't argue, just struggle and that's it.
Short post in the name of short life.

Adios World.

Thursday, January 29, 2004

Dad please come back

Tonight I called my dad, and almost got cry after hearing his voice after a long time.
That was almost 3 years back when he last visited us. We know that its really hard to work in another country and most tough of all that alone. I know father that u really are having a tough time out there alone, but believe me that its always been the same with us without u.
Actually, he was planning to come back to Pakistan at this eid and we all were very happy that this eid would bring us more joy and happiness and we all will enjoy our eid with our beloved dad, but yesterday he called home and confirmed that he is not coming at this eid as well. Hearts brakes!
Same case wid me, I thought that I should call him by myself and I did it tonight, I called at his cell fone and he was still in his office, though it was 9 o clock there in Emirats.
Neway, I called him and asked the reason and he told me that he is having some visa problem he will try.
Dad v all need u very bad, please come home. Pleaseee.
Right now I am a bit upset, don't have anything to write, that was y I felt like I should write something abt that.
Our prays are wid u dad, no matter how conditions would be "U are just ours, and our beloved and we always will pray for u forever".
Adios World.

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Reason of my worries

Now days I am really feeling a great deal of change within myself. My mind is working very fine, I am feeling myself the most intelligent guy on the block.
As far as my concern I think there could be two reason:
Reason No. 1: Because of my glasses, and;
Reason No. 2: Because I am free and have nothing to do.
The reasons are pretty small in sense of capturing the space, but only I know the meaning. Glasses does implement a psychological impression on my mind according to the common sense that everyone who is wearing glasses must be an intelligent. Being free of everything is another, being free of exams, being free of job, being free of gfs :).
I am feeling that coz everybody is saying that "Fahad tu kuch zayada he taiz nahi hogaya, socha kam ker bhai". :(
And most interesting of all is that everybody gets agree to me if I say anything, like if all clocks are stop working and everybody in da house keeps worrying abt that how could all clocks of the house stops working in a same period of time, I know the reason. Cuz its winter and batteries have to work double. Mama said Fahad u are a genius now I got it and she brought a whole quota of batteries for whole season of winter and now she is happy. But I am worrying that where would be I reached with this overacting of brain :(.
Baji was worried that how com we are having hot water in our taps if v don't have any geyser in our home, I was also observing it and it was as simple as that the Aunty on the floor above of ours have one, so when she uses it in her taps, it cause the whole pipeline becomes hot. So as we are living on the floor next to her and the water tank is on the roof, when we open our taps for water, the water comes from water tank by passing her water pipelines first, so that is why we are having hot water in our taps. Now she is also satisfied with this logical answer. :( but I am still worried upon my cleverness. Darn I am free.
Irfan stayed answerless tonite when I took him, the whole scene goes like:
Irfan: Oh Aunty ki bachat hogai.
(I followed his eyes and found that two bikes were almost having a crash)
I: What happened kia aunty ka accident honay walay tha?
Irfan: Nahi yaar bike ka
I: Oh i thought kay aunty ka
Irfan: No yaar, ager bike ka hota to aunty bhi jaaten na?
I: Aunty bike hain kia?
Irfan: Nahi woh bethi to hui theen na
I: To kia aunty bike chala rahi theen?
Irfan: NO yaar uncle was driving obviously
I: To ager accident hota to pehlay kis ko lagta?
Irfan: Uncle ko
I: THen why did u said that "aunty ki bachat hogai?" tujhey uncle ka koi khayal nahi hai?
Irfan: *winks* oops, yes u are right!
I: * :( * why am I always???????????????
SO that was it, but this is not finished yet, cuz I am worried upon that, this is not as good as everybody is thinking, coz I know what's the reason behind that intellectuality. Cuz I'm darn free :(. May God bless me.

Anyway, wrapping up! Coz there are some more hot topics to think over, as the most important of them that how could I get reach to that MOON GIRL, according to Aysh i have to start watching Power Puff Girls, I guess she is making fun of me! *:(* Undo if u are doing it Aysh. May God bless all of us. I mean how can I get reach to the MOON GIRL if I waste all of time in watching that darn Kiddo cartoon. What can I do if I rather like Johny Bravo.

:( Adios World.

Monday, January 26, 2004

Sunday kay naam.....

Sometimes i think that why sunday comes to make the mess of the whole week, the week would be more then best if no sunday comes in it. If anyone knows about the one who discover the word sunday then please do let me know, coz i have to kill the one.
Anyway, tonight I am very happy, don't know why, may be coz of some memories..
Some wise said that "Be happy sometime for nothing". Actually that wise is nobody else but me ;).
Actually some old days are coming into my memory, when I was a happy happy guy but that was due to some reasons, although now I have lost all of my reasons to joy, therefore tonight I am just trying to be happy for nothing. Was busy whole day coz I had nothing to do. :).

Right now I am just writing a poem here, I have found it from somewhere.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."
The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the endless sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes?
Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.
That is all. In the distance someone sings. In the distance.
My soul is lost without her.
My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart searches for her, and she is not with me.
The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, true, but how I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. As she once belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is lost without her.
Though this may be the last pain she causes me,
and these the last verses that I write for her.


Ahh sunday kia kahoon tujhey.... :(
Just Adios world.

Saturday, January 24, 2004

Story of an interview.

Comparatively a busy day so far.
Went for interview :). Time to wrap up blankets again. Yes as I said again, it means that enjoying and free days are about to over once again, as I was resting since Ramadan.
Yeah I resigned my ex job due to the month of Ramadan. Actually I do have my own logics, I can't work while I have a fast. I was having a look at Ejaz's, I found him in search of some bahana to leave the office, well lemme tell u abt me how I left mine, that was my boss, Mr. Rehman, someone told him that the guy (me), uses his cell fone very oftenly in his office. Mr. Rehman came to me and start inquiring me abt that information he had. I said yes sir I do use my cell fone, but still I am very much loyal to my work. I mean one thing I had in mind at that time that Mr. Rehman don't have any rights to ask me about that totally insignificant thing, why is he asking me. But all he did is force me to shut my cell fone off right away, I obeyed him, that was okay, but when he said "Give it to me?" that was enof. I was undecided so I gave my cell fone to him, just wanna c that what he'll gonna do wid that. He took my cell fone and walk away from my office.
I, at that time just trying to making myself calm down, it could be possible that I forgot that act of him, but suddenly a scene came into my mind when few days back I saw him slapping his labor for nothing. I boiled up and went to his office directly and goes "I want my cell fone back", "Kion g?". He asked me in almost dieng voice coz the whole office staff stopped working and hold their breath that what will happen next. I said "I just want my cell fone back, I don't wanna work here, under sucha bum man like u", he replied "Aap ko baat kernay ki tameez nahi hai", as soon as i heard that I blasted over him and u know "khoob sunai". Anyway, I was just trying to find any reason to leave that job and the boss provides me by himself.
Anyway, mind u the salary also wasn't enough :).
So the interview of today went great, let c, I need prays.
One thing I would like to write about the receptionist there in the office. My friend comment about her that "Mujhey aisa lag raha hai kay iss ka roza hai", lolzzzz, I said yes u are right my friend "yea to dekh he nahi rahi". :) And one funny of all was that we thanks to God that she wasn't giving any kindda lift to us after interview coz the man who was looking like peon standing right in front of her table was the boss, and he took my interview afterwards :).
Anyway, right now I am feeling pain in my 3rd and fourth eye, so I think I should goto bed and have some rest. May ALLAH bless me and all of the bosses.
Adios world.

Friday, January 23, 2004

About my smoking!

Well, as everybody have different types of concepts about smokers.
Some thinks that when ever any body's hearts breaks, he starts smoking, and something like that.
Well, about me, my story is a bit very tragedic, actually I didn't start smoking coz of anything like that, coz first of all I don't believe in love and second of all that I don't believe in love. ::)
That was one fine night, way back in 1997, when I just got free from my matriculation exams, and I alongwid my friends going to some Awara gerdi. Some of my friends started smoking occasionally, and Rehman was one of them, he was just puffing on me regularly just to tang me. But I was ignoring him, but when suddenly he released the puff right on my face, a wave of pay back born in my brain. I said dear cya next time I'll not gonna leave u.
So that was another fine night, same friends, same Rehman and same I, but with cigarette holding in my lips just like James Bond. I told Rehman that be prepare kiddo, its a payback time.................................
So that bad habit in me started from a lil game and now the same I, same fine nights, but always I do have cigarette in my lipz. I do chain smoking and almost 3 packets a day, sometimes my heart says that u should make it to round figure by up-grading urself to 4 packets/day. But isn't this my greatness that I keep reminding myself that damnit smoking is injurious to health. Anyway.
As some poet said
Jo mohabbat ho to bay-payyan ho, jo nafrat ho to bai-had ho
Koi kaam bhi kam kerna mujhey her giz nahi aata
So I thought a lot about it, but nothing ever could be successful in changing me. My mama knows about it, and there is another funny story hidden behind that......
another fine night when I came home, she already had a doubt that her angel started smoking in a very lil age and he is not even allowed by any law of the world coz he is not even 18, but all she could do isto wait for some proof, so she caught me one night as I was releasing cigarettes smell from me, She caught me and said lemme check ur mouth, I am having a smell of cigarette from u. I just tried to stop her by my hands, when at the time she was getting near to my face my hands automatically raised to stop her, suddenly she caught my hand and felt them. Patakhhhhhhhh was the only sound raised and fell in the depth of darkness. :(
So that was the first and last day she inquire about my habit, since then she never even try to ask me. But I can feel withing myself that she don't like that.
To quit smoking is the easiest thing I ever did. I ought to know because I've done it a thousand times. Some wise said that The best way to stop smoking is to carry wet matches., but what to do if I have 10's of different beautiful lighters :). khee khee.
Pray for me!
Adios world.

Thursday, January 22, 2004

Meray bachpan kay din.

Wohaaaaa, guess what? I just wakeup and my mama award me with a new sleeping dress, yuppeeeeeee, I used word award coz its really a hard thing for my mama to wake me up in the morning when I just slept in da night after enjoying da rain.
The dress seems to me a very special one it has stars of white color, lil circles of silver colors and with blue color word 'ANGEL' is written all over it :). Everything is fine except the word angel, (MAMAAAAA, I am not an angel and I've told u hundred of times, why don't u believe me).
Sometimes I think that it hurts her many more that her son is saying it, al;though she knows it very well that angels don't smoke, but..... :) sweet mama facts are facts, no one can deny them.
Anyway, err.... I forgot to tell u the color of the sleeping dress its a sky blue color.
The dress reminds me of my childhood memories :). One thing I must say that the days of our childhood are more precious than the whole money we've earn in our whole life. There is no replacement of our childhood.
Like everybody I also had enjoy my childhood a lot, me along wid my bros and friends, actually here I would like to mention that I had lots of friends in my childhood but all the secret games and missions and every thing like that I just shared them with my bros, means my bros were my best friends all the way, we used to play video game, eat ice lollys as much as we want, coz we didn't have the fear that someone may gonna got to mom and tell her about ice lollies.
Anyway, these memories will remain forever, there are many more ANGEL's sleeping dress will come and lots of kids I will see eating ice lollies, but memories will remain as beautiful as today.

What one loves in childhood stays in the heart forever
-Mary Jo Puthey

Memories themselves are filtered by subsequent experience - they aren't as objective as we sometimes believe them to be. Sharing our memories provides others a precious window to who we are - our individuality. Your memories are yours alone. Sharing them is one of the most generous things you can do. With this post I hope to encourage you to do just that - share your memories.

Adios world.

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

Rain iz a Gift of GOD

Guess what? Karachi enjoyed a whole day rain today!
That was something more than most loveliest. I was at home couldn't enjoyed the rain, according to some wise said that "There is a much difference between those two, one which was getting wet in da rain and the other who was watching it through the window", well I was the one who enjoyed the rain through my window, but still I would say that there couldn't be anything more lovely than raining in Karachi.
A very lovely day ends with some very cool and interesting time I've spend wid my friends. Everybody was praying Lahol Wala for me, as I was in very energetic mood. Everybody was saying kay damnit Karl are u in ur senses? But it was only me who knows that what thing creating magic over me, that is nothing else but just the superb weather, it was dynamic cold out there tonite. And I was feeling lucky that I can enjoy the weather by any way I want. But I still can see that old man whose feet are uncovering a struggling story of his life and he was sleeping on a foot path of GURUMANDIR Chowk. I sometimes wonder that whether its a hot summer or a cold winter, no season have a power to change the life routines of these poor ppl (beggars especially). Cool rain, louey Sun etc, do have a great impression but not for those poor beggars. :(
well well well, snap out of it damn it! Still u are enjoying ur life na with cigarettes u have complete quota till tomorrow morning and a hot glass of milk, what do u have to do with these minor little problems, this is just LIFE. May GOD help me. :(
Well about the response I have at the moment for my question about friends is very much positive, so I will continue with that. And nobody took any kindda interest in uncovering my nick's mystery so I am folding it again, no need of it.
In the end just lemme mention that it was only Samita who took a bit interest in solving the mystery of my name, so excuses Samita G, gimme some more time to collect some more votes for it :), I hope u wont mind that. What if I can offer u to leave a mystery for me as a payback? :p
Anyway, one beautiful quote in the name of beautiful weather today
My heart leaps up when I behold
A rainbow in the sky:
So was it when my life began;
So is it now I am a man;
So be it when I shall grow old,
Or let me die!
* William Woodsworth

Adios World.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

"Karl" a mystery, (not for long)

Well well well, thanks very much to the persons who are appriciating me and my blog espcieally.
The most common question is rising about the name i have holding. Ok, lemme clear the confusion about it. As Owl asks me that "Why are you 'Karl'?", Hina said that "Hey karl, Fahad isn't a bad name. You should start loving it." and respected Ejaz Asi said that "Hi, your name is fahad and the blog name is karl, kewl."
So, grab your hearts, open your ears, and please close your mouth, yeah i am pointing u out, why are u looking in surroundings. I'll gonna ask u a question first, that "what is the most shining thing in your whole world infact in whole universe?" Ok the answer is due on me as one thing is for sure that everybody will guess it out. :). And please i dont like infact i cant bear daring reactions.
Ok one new thing infact it is a second question of today's blog that as everybody can see the new section at the left corner of my blog which is stated under Friends' head, i wanna ask all of them a thing, that i hope u don't mind that if i call all of you my friends? :) *looking at everybody*.
I am just learning and i hope all of u wont show a typical pakistani reaction that "Nai oye, to aey nai ker sakda, aey tay saada kum aey". Anyway, i also am not one them who will stand and fight like a man, i am a very innocent lil 21 year old kiddo.
In de end i wanna thanks Samita for her visit at my Personal website, thanks very much Samita :).
Ok, right now i am going to make the mess of my digestive system by eating pizza and believe me there is lot to eat, as u may know that i can't do anything without eating anything. :)
I am comming my pizzaaaaa *yelling*............
Adios world.

Monday, January 19, 2004

GOD HELP ME!

:(, I am writing it for the second time, as when I press the post and publish button the net got disconnected and all of my written stuff vanished at once. May ALLAH help me.
I don't wanna write about what I already wrote.
Anyway, I am still looking to update my layout as I have two votes for it already one in da favor and the other one in the disliking, anyway thanks Hina for the favor and thanks very much Ejaz to disliking and some ideas.
I will surely think over it, as it needs me some quantity of food to pressurize my 8 GM brain and force it to think.
Right now I am leaving for hunting, *Lunch time* :)
Adios World.

Sunday, January 18, 2004

A worthless discussion

Missed yesterday, actually didn't feeling well last night, though I went to bed at 4 of the morning, but still didn't find the time to blog, anyway,
So, last night we all friends enjoyed very much, as v had nothing special to joy about but still v all managed to enjoy. All of us were making fun of each other nothing special.
Hmmm, still I have lots of work to do for my website and guess what very seriously I am doing it.
Last night when we friends were sitting at our place near garden west, two young women came to us, guess what they were beggars and just imagine what they were wearing, A full length ABAYA (BURQA) which also hides theie face as well, and almost brand new joggers, we had to guess from their walking style and their voice. They were young by these prospective and were begging. An old man sitting right behind us took those girls angrily as the girls went to ask him for some money (G hamain Korangi jana hai), the old man said I gave u the fare yesterday as u were lost yesterday as well, what is this, why u come back with the same situation from korangi if u don't have fare today as well. :)
Well, these are very big discussions and topics to be uncovered I am sure that those girls were from some kind of Union of beggars and like this, and believe me with situations like these Pakistan will never become ina condition to be self independent. Anyway, what I have to do with these minor problems? I have many other and major problems to worry about as the onions are short from market and the rest are selling on a very high price.
ok then have a nice day as my day is just begin
Adios world.

Saturday, January 17, 2004

Thanks to God that todday i managed to pray the friday prayers :), and that is un-doubtedly the most important work of teh day.
Anyway, was busy in uploading my web page with another new main page, so nuffin special, time to leave.
Adios world.

Friday, January 16, 2004

Hurrah new layout atlast...

First of all, elevations for me as I finally have found a perfect layout for my blogger. Actually it's a skin and I found it from blogskins.com, thanks to blogskins.com.
So, a long and hard day and I passed my whole day in shaping my layout and offcourse in front of my PC. And after that I obviously need some refreshment so I decided to solve the dispute a story which began few days ago at Agha khan park. The matter is solved now, but not good enough for me, but I don't care, I inshahllah will handle it soon.
So, after that a routine friends' gathering, everybody was there tonite and the day belongs to hussain as he was in very genuine mood. He took everybody very hardly and made the mess of our minds :) but we enjoyed that.
Hmm. today is Friday so hope to get up early in the morning to get ready for Friday prayers after quite some time.
I missed one thing tonite, as I wanted to talk to imtiaz about the cancellation of joining his friend's party on 24th. Actually I am not in mood now days coz being free does create a lots of nasty over me :). So inshahllah I will talk to him tomorrow.
Nothing special else except my strange thoughts which comes over me with regular intervals. I sometimes thinks that why everybody always seems making me fool with their stupid things as jamshed did earlier in the evening today, it is coz I listen to then which I should not. I should do whatever my heart says but what to do with the friendly relations with my friends.
I think I was and I am never proves anything else but just a good friend to the world. Fahad please change urself a bit, but how com? Is the main question, sometimes my mind stop working and then I start listening to every another stupid :).
Anyway, just have a thought in my mind and like to write it down, I think that we Pakistanis are yet to be free, yet to be called as free countryman, yet to use our rights being a free nation and many more. I feel the thing tonight as I saw police also favoring Ismaili community. What the hell this is? Government almost snatching taxes from us from a common Muslim man of this country but what they are just speaking for the rights of minorities, it is good from some extent, but limits never counts to be as good. Anyway, power speaks about itself by itself, common man like us, like me always seems in troubles. Anyway.
Just was enjoying my new layout, so that's it for tonite..
Adios world.

Thursday, January 15, 2004

Everything but nothing.

SO at last, the boy also got glasses, the boy who always seems making fun of those who wears glasses and the boy who never likes to wear glasses in his whole life.
Damnit its me 0.75 is the initial number and I was ignoring the daily pain :(, neway, May GOD bless me!.
Right now I am not feeling comfortable with my glasses as this is my first night in front of PC with glasses on my eyez all I am asking is blessings from GOD.
Anyway, right now I am listening Casper's soundtrack. Actually its just a piano music, I kept some like this one and hears them when my mind is in need of some peace. These themes or u could call them Karaoke muszics provides me something as peace, just to enjoy. Its very lovely. Today is 15th of January, and its Pervai'z birthday (waqas's friend). The birthday reminding me of many others, who left me and some with me. For eg. Naeem's on 1st of January and many others.
Allright, I changed the track and now its a soundtrack of famous BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. Its from one of my favorites as well. gimme some time to enjoy it silently with no tic tacs of keyboards.
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Allright I am back. Ahhh wasn't that peaceful?
Anyway, last night yousuf came to me for nothing else but just for fighting, we did a lot of backbitting together :). But I have a quality I call it weakness though, that I don't leave anybody till graveyard if he or she have something bad in his mind for me, yousuf was in dangerous mood but still I managed to satisfied him with my arguments power ;P. This is a game of right hand for me. Hmm.. If I takes it like that I don't like to react like others, means they left their wid many questions on their mind, I am not one of them.
Tonight I am in very much good mood in sense of writing, I am just enjoying, miss-spelling and tic tac of keybo\ard :).
One thing funny I was having a look at DAWN's classified early in the evening, actually reading real estate adds, and in the column of Bath Island and defence, and not actually amazingly the prices are above seven zeroes mark :).
Anyway, just checked an email, sameer sends me. Its an email with animal's birthdates. I am Libra and born on 2nd of October, so my horoscope says that I am not a mouse, not a dog, not a lion, neither panther, nor turtle or not cat, I am a MONKEY and monkey's sign says that:-
If you are a Monkey: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!.
Wasn't that funny? Good lolzzzzzzzzzz..
anyway, time for me to have a glass of milk and wrap up.
Adios world.

Monday, January 12, 2004

What? Why?

Well, was unable to write anything, coz I was a bit upset as one of my school friend Salman is hospitalized. And what? Brain tumor :(, very sad
Goodness me, May ALLAH helps him to get rid of this kindda illness.
My prays are wid him, well sometimes I think that in this very world there are very few things to cherish for and this world is full of miseries and problems and most of the time i dont have to look for it, they comes automatically in to the view.
What? what i have to do with the flowers if they are wearing the color of blood of some innocent of Gujrat or Kashmir, iraq or afghanistan, i mean what i have to do with the beautiful sky if its wearing the color of tears of all innocent poor kids of the world, what i have to do with the greenry of forests and freshness of the atmosphere if these things built upon the concept of AVOID POORS AND FEED RICHS, i mean what would i gonna do with all that??????????????? MAY ALLAH gives my soul some sort of satisfaction.
No body in this world, no body, even me have the time to comes out from my own problems and even try to face the problems of others, why???????????
Sometimes the voice comes from my heart with some sort of force and emphasisically that "Why it is getting more and more difficult to live in the world of today", no answer!!!
Well excuseme! there are hundreths of answers which can satisfy, but no atleast none of them is exceptable. Who'll gonna expect them? U? Me? Na, no way!
No one is responsible for this infact all of us this whole world is responsible for all that..
Anyway, these kindda disscussion needs a lots of brain and energy and i already have put my 8 gm. brain on the line, now who'll gonna turn up next? :)

Well think and decide...
till then
Adios.

Saturday, January 10, 2004

Friday, and i missed Friday prayers, damn me! :(
This is start happening very often, but i know i should have to overcome this of my weakness, i should'nt have miss prays. Ok, from now on i will work hard for it.
Very bad day of todday, though wasif came to gimme a visit and i always like to wellcome him coz he very often gives me a visit. Anyway, was sad, dont know why, but yeah am, chhhh. Nothing i have, besides having every enjoyment, friends' gatherings and all that, but still something is missing, i am trying hard to find it out.
But all i know is that i wont find it coz there is nothing such existing thing which is missing :(, i am sad.
And sadness spraying itself all over me, i am unable to stop it doing that.
Damn it there is a very simple way of getting rid from this sadness and it is that make urself busy in something, means in anythig.
Anyway, will try, need prays, but who'll gonna do that :), i know no one.
Dad is comming after eid, lots of things to do and lots of plans in mind. My ALLAH do what is better for us.
just.....
Adios.

Thursday, January 08, 2004

So nuffin special still, though i am here after quite sometime.
Anyway, was on some james bond 007 mission kindda thing :). Jamshed's friend siraj is making everybody fool by saying that he is going through some papers of CSS but we don't believe him, thats why i planned last night with jamshed that according to siraj he has his last paper left and that is todday at 2 of noon, so we decided to follow him quitely and sharply so we could be able to find out the mystery, but very unfortunetly i had to go to attend my maternal uncle at 1 of noon and i reached to jamshed at 2:15. He told me that siraj just left for his paper, i was just 15 minutes late :(.
Anyway, the mission is in pending till siraj will have his viva tests starts again. So that was of todday, much more routine enjoyment to come as sun is falling down. So now days i am busy in updating some stuff for my website and actually busy in giving teh shape to my own poetry. I know how, so wont goto the details.
hmmmmm
nuffing much
Adios....

Sunday, January 04, 2004

Just another man!

Welldone! welldone damn it!
What do u think of urself, that its only u who who holds the rights to say truths? That was totally unfair what I did last night :(, i knew it and i know it but dont know what thing came over me and forced me to do that. I will not excuse u Irfan coz i knew that the day will have to come one day and yesterday was the day. I knew we will brake up like this, i knew that u will not have a patience to face the truths, i knew that u have many and great expectations from me. Me! a most common man on earth, i told u many a times that dear i am nothing dont expect that much from me, just realize me teh way i am, i the hack of me never fullfils anybody's expectations and i am no one but just another man.
As i told u many a times that Irfan now it dont cost me a lil thing to brake up and let go any one, coz its me who lost many things at each and every stage of life. Anyway, dont wanna be seriosu anymore, coz i noted it many a times that whenever i use to react liek serious, mu stomach start asking for some food and right now i already had my lunch and i know there is no chance for another meal before night. :)
Anyway, all in all i just know onething that by the loosing of friends and loved ones at any stages of life, life dont stops, it must go on all teh time and everytime. I observed it many a times in my life.
just Adios......

Friday, January 02, 2004

Circle of life

Well I call this a circle of life!
What? u didn't get it? Ok, I mean how com u, if I never try to let u know :)
Anyway, was busy in Yousuf's engagement ceremony which was on 31st of December, :) let me say that we waste our new year's enjoyment :) just kiddin..
I just enjoyed in two wedding related parties in ma whole life and damn u, yousuf ur's was one of them, the first one of Farah's wedding way back in 2001 or 2002. I enjoyed by every mean. Anyway, I wont discuss them here cuz long stories are need to be unhide that is why.
So all that happenings and everything involved in that engagement ceremony uncover many thingz to me and lemme say that each and everything was nothing but just can be name as junk activities, I mean un-necessary. I wonder many a times in my life that why are ppl always seems spending that much money on their such parties or I should say on wedding related parties, they are totally un-necessary. Wedding could be done widout these un-necessary parties and expense. But......
I know at time I by myself also will see myself getting involve in all that stuff, but this is not good, I know I can't change the things and I can't change the way they are doing, but still I atleast can protest.
Anyway, if I just could manage to avoid my positive thinking in such mannerz then I should say that I love to be in such parties :) :P. Cuz that was after some time that I met wid some of my very old friends Mani and irani :). Hmmmm... I just wrote irani to balance the sentence :) anyway, it really doesn't matter irani that u don't like my attitude and the way I treat u, but lemme mention that this is the way I am. I can't change myself in term of attitude and I can't change my way of thinking. Anyway, it also could be my way of thinking which let me realize that u don't like me or may be its not like that, but still there are many questions.
In the end lemme ask for forgiveness from friends and un-friends :). In my point of view all those things and personalities hold a great importance for me which and who just gave me a little time of joy. I will not and I can't forget about them.

Anyway, according to my zodiac sign of this year, I will fall into religious activities this year, so lemme start trying from now on, will show some absence from internet. But one funny thing that this craze will keep grabbing me within itself till 25th of September and after that I will start doing all that stuff lolzzzzz, wasn't that funny?
Anyway, allow me to vanish......................
Adios....
Baringhhhhh