Alright, ppl im back, caution first of all that header doesnt have anything to do with that post, so forget abt it.
So often i thought to write something which i really wanna write, but then i found myself unable to do so. Coz i have one thing in my mind that this is the world of all sorts of ppl, who have different kindda minds. I am confused, therefore, that wheather i ought to write what i really feel like or not. Now i guess i should not care what ppl thinks of me, coz its my place and i should be feel free to write anything what i want.
My very earlier posts were actually representing that of my confusing state, coz i wrote in many hidden words, now i can't do that anymore, i wanna scream, i wanna yell, i wanna shout and let the world listen that how i am feeling from inside now days.
It was..... damn it! I can't, i just can't turn my feelings into words, im fail once again. I am sorry Fahad, i know that i dissapoint u once again but i am helpless. I know that what are the reasons for u that u aren't sleeping since two days and two long nights, coz 6ht June is comming.
6th June, a cutthroat day for me, cant bear the pain, can't wait for that day to come, can't i just remove the day from the calender? *voice of conscience* Nooooooo! gone nutts or somefin??? hahahaha..
Hmmm, yes i gone nutts really, coz now when Im standing in no-man's-land and even try to look back in my past I determines that how i dissembled anserinly. Alas if i could turn back time and cope to stop myself doing all that. Arghhhhh, this dohickey situation forcing me to jump cut to my past, to that time which I don't wanna commemorate. Anyway, life's too short to go back and lost into memories, but what to do if the sense of loosing something is killing from inside?
Haa, a poem of my own Im reciting here and hope that no-one will be able to get it right....
Jao tum! Go away!
Theek hai chali jao Alright go away
Mai nay tumhain bohat sataya hai I've troubled u alot
Mager But
Tum bhi kissi say kam nahi ho U're also the same
Mai to shehroon ki musafat per tha I was at miles' distance
Aur phir tumharay shehar mai ajnabi tha And was stranger in ur town
Ghamoon ka ik pahar tha sar per aur I was carrying a burden of sorrows over my head
Mera haal ajeeb sa tha I was so broken
Jub jatay huay uss nay mur ker poocha kay When she turned bygone and asked
"Mai jaon...?" May I leave...?
Adios.
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