Monday, December 29, 2003

Atlast

Damn me! first of all....
Long time no c na? Yeah it is like that, I know, but it shouldn't, but what to do.
Anyway, actually was busy in updating my web page, but the hack didn't really work out for me wid the idea I made by myself. Now again I have to reset everything for my webpage and will have to make a new setup.
Anyway, Christmas has been over, new year's celebrations are about to come and my one of childhood's friend's engagement ceremony is also comming by the end of this very year :). Yousuf I wish a merrily happy engagement's life :). Though u are heading towards the complete disaster, but u know we are helpless :).
There is a big involvement of world's living system, as it goes on like this...
Step by step.
1. Welcome to the new world, choona mona, paara sa bacha....
2. Yeahhhh.. suniye ga, munna starts walking on his feets, please distributes sweets among relatives.....
3. Munna today is your first day of school, don't get scare haan.... (Mummy will u be there wid me na?)
4. Mama I have passed my matriculation exams, yeahhhhhhh (time to party)
5. Beta get up! College nahi jana! ( No mums, I have to attend a party later evening, and I don't wanna be tired before that....)
6. Ya ALLAH! Thanks! By Allah's help, son is graduate now.....
7. Mama, my first salary......... :)
8. Now he stands on his own, sara's parents were asking....... ;)
9. Poo poon pooonn pooooonnn......................
10. First baby and life's cycle start repeating itself again....

So yousuf dont marry right now dear otherwise ur life will end according to that chart, u are in 8th step and u dont have much time left.... :)
Anyway, upto u, i just can pray for u
May Allah bless all of us....
ADIOS.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

“Who knows what tomorrow holds”

What can we ask for? Life is a precious gift of god. Always make the most of it. Whatever long-term goals you have, start pursuing them today. What do we have to lose? Try to see the beauty of the world around you everytime you step outside. Try to smell the sweet fragrance that the moving wind brings. Try to hear the soft sounds that mother nature bears. For this is life, the ultimate love. Make the most out of your life. Love…Laugh…Live…Who knows what tomorrow has in store?

Aaj, Aaj ek hasee aur baant lo...
(Let's share a smile again today)
Aaj, ek dua aur maang lo....
(Today, Let's ask for one more blessing)
Aaj, ek aanso aur pi lo...
(Today shed one more tear)
Aaj, ek zindagi aur ji lo...
(Today live another life)
Aaj, ek sapna aur dekh lo...
(Today, live another dream)
AAJ.....kya pata, Kal Ho naa ho....
(Today, Who know's 'Tomorrow We Will Be or We won't be)


ADIOS....

Monday, December 22, 2003

Sharjah iz all about "ROLLA"

I am not sure about the word rolla as a long time has been passed but phir bhi one of friend did ask me tonight that fahad u were born in shsrjah and u were approximately of the teh age of 9 when u came in khi. So can u explain me that how sharjah is? "Sharjah is all about rolla", i replied.
yeah it is true that i born in some hospital of sharjah and offcourse i wa snot able to look at the hospital that how its is look like, how was the roads way back to home from the hospital. and when i came into my senses i just used to play outside my house gate and if i step forward i manage to reach at my papa's restaurant and then to some my favorite "bangali's shop", that person had a shop of ice-creams and cold drink, so i do visit him very often not in justa day but in an hour. and if i step some further steps with the help of my dad and yeah in my car we just can manage to sea the place which we used to call rolla comes. where we very rarely go in once or twice in a month coz that was teh fault of our papa that he didnt take us there. so thats why i says that sharjah is all about rolla, i didnt see a bit more than that rolla :).
So now i have a wish that as i am mature enof now so will see sharjah in real soon. nothing is yet decided but still i know. Anyway, last two papers are left so nothing special uptill the end of paperz. therefore all tafreehs and hang out wid friends are in pending. Imtiaz starts comming again as he left us for some days for some marrige to attend in Gujranwala.
Now days i am very much worried due to the rising expenses of my cigerattes but i know i have enough money for a month in my wallet as soon as that money will dissappears in puffs, i know i will manage to control teh raising speed of my smoking. Goodness me damn it u are almost burning ur more than hundred rupees in ciggerettes :( thats more than enof. But i know why am i smoking that much?????????????

some ask "why?" "why?"

cuz of the paperz na :p
yeah offcourse i do have a tension that when the hack i will be free of paperz.?
:)
I am creating some stuff of urdu ghazals of wasi shah for my new website, so here i am writing one of my favorite ghazal of wasi shah...

"Apnay ahsaass say choo ker mujhey sandal ker do
Mai kay sadion say adhoora hoon mukamil ker do

Na tumhain hosh rahay aur na mujhey hosh rahay
Iss qader toot kay chaho mujhey pagal ker do

Tum hatheli ko meray piar ki mehndi say rangoo
Apni aankhoon mai meray naam ka kajal ker do

Dhoop he dhoop hoon mai toot kay barso mujh per
Mai to sehra hoon mujhey piar ka badal ker do

Iss kay saye mai meray khuwab mehak uthain gay
Meray chehray pay umeedon bhara anchal ker do

Apnay hontoon say koi mohar lagao mujh per
Ik nazar piar say dekho mujhey ghayal ker do"


Adios....

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Something about an misunderstanding

Well actually that could not count as an misunderstanding, cuz its the hack of of my cable net which wasn't working since last night, but thanks to GOd that it is working now, somehow.
Although had a very much free day but still it was mama who still could manage to put me in many troubles, Dear they are ur own home work aur tum nahi kero gay to kaun karay ga? That was the sentence of my cute mama aur phir uss dear ko had to buy fruits from the market, had to submit the telephone bill, had to visit the bank, had to goto the electronics market cuz fone's receiver wasn't working fine and in the end had to bring Cheeni, aata aur janay kia kia????????/// :(
I am tired, I really am :(. But in the end of the day of today I got some time for myself which I had spent at the shore of sea :), hehe, Idiot why do u visit the sea side that much???????????/ is the question asking by my brain. No special reason just to find peace and I also do love the sound of waves. (I know, I know).
So its the gap of total three days before I have another tough paper on my head that is of Banking and finance and on very next to that Pakistan studies. After that a big and long relief anddddddddddddd nothing.................
Anyway, 3:15 already and I have no plans to goto bed n yes offcourse its Sunday tomorrow morning. Yupppeeeee yaad aya, I ve got my cassette recorded tonight, and yes offcourse it is great, infact everybody appreciate each and every song, cuz it was my choice and each song is really a great one.
Nuffin extra special for tonight, I am just going to enjoy a bit of music and will have some cigarettes before I Goth bed.
Adios......

Friday, December 19, 2003

I lost

I think I won myself beside loosing everything, but all I care is for nothing.
Selfishness inside me somewhere help me having the decision. But don't know what thing inside me missing, and I miss the missing thing badly. (Shhhhhh....) Type slowly damn it! Ur conscience may listen to u otherwise. I at the moment trying hide myself from my conscience. Anyway, lemme say for the last time Lahore aur wahan kay loog kabhi nahi bhool paon ga. Well that was my promise with my conscience that it will allow me for one thing and it is that I will never ever stop discussing about her it doesn't matter she's gone. :)
So long day that was off today, cuz early in the morning that is 12:00 :) I had to wake up for some home work, done. :( Yaad aya, T28 is not working fine, some battery problem, anyway, I will try to go to the market to let the T28 have a check soon. But I don't think so there will be any way which don't force me to make my pocket a bit light, I guess I have to buy another battery :(, this is not good.
So lets bring some of my past in present, Noor college bohat yaad aa raha hai :) lolzzzzzz I wont store any thing of Noor college here coz here I write those things which I know I may forget some day than writing over here will let me remember the thingz again, but why come I write those thingz which I know I will never forget :). Farrukh, buddy I miss u yaar, but sometime haan not always :p. Through some extent u un-doubtedly help me choose the right path, that was his influence, I know and I accept it. Irani, Mani and shani lolzzzzz sounds same, I note it today, anyway, I still have one opportunity left now, and it is just to meet wid mani, but I don't make good use of the opportunity :). Junaid, sara, sadaf everybody, bhabhi, afsheen :), khalid and yes offcourse nasir too. I miss the great time we all spend together. Hey don't point out her name. What? I mean what now discuss it yaar and forget everything bad just keep the good time in ur view damn it! Ab to baray ho jao ;). Ok ok, I also remember u sobia, I mean how come I forget about u, u were the only person who changed my life completely from head to toe. :). Appreciate the hack of me farrukh, look I am forgetting everything bad day by day I am improving accidents by accidents lolzzzz.... Thanks mani for that financial aid which u gave me at Peshawari ice cream ;). Thanks afsheen and hina what all u did in that case and hina do u remember the paper which I wanna gave to her and the paper which seems very old by the virtue of the sweat of my palm :). And special thanks to POTATO Sir lolzzzzzz.. Remember me ? I am ur damn P-caper :).
Chhhhhh what a time that was.
Long list of memories but ohhhhh come back u P-caper lolzzzzzz u have a paper tommorow and a bit tough one of eco. Well what u gonna do now by calling me back? :) Goto bed damn it! what else.

Craig David sings..... and sings well...
I know that everything is gonna change,
Even the friends I knew before may go,
But this dream is the life I've been searching for,
Started believing that I was the greatest,
My life was never gonna be the same,
Cause with the money came a different status,
That's when things change,
Now I'm too concerned with all the things I own,
Blinded by all the pretty girls I see,
I'm beginning to lose my integrity.


Adios..................

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Discussion wid myself

Today was far better than last couple of days, since I had nothing special, atleast today I had many things to re-think over them and made some decisions.
Anyway, I was against myself, means me asking questions and me was giving the answers at the same time. I do the stuff sometime when I finds something to have argument over it. Anyway I call it my conscience. Anyway, my conscience gave me the total of 24 hour to rethink and make my decisions for once again and as far as my concern I think that I have to give everything up in front of my conscience.
So the matter was good old same one. I won't discuss it over here again cuz I already made the mess of my head.
Some about paper in noon, that went very good, beyond my expectations, but thanks for ur prayers anyway :). I attempt 4 questions in all and I by myself left the fifth one though I had lots of things to write upon that, but I didn't try cuz it was already totally mess of my head, I wrote non-stop 2 and a half hours then I gave up and walk out. That was enough I think.
So tonight my all sorrows once again reborn to disturbs me as irfan did tell me tonight that why he cancelled to go with me to Lahore cuz I had to drop him and had to pick naeem wid me cuz irfan said it by himself that he can't go but tonight he letme know the real reason behind that. Actually I took some money on credit at the time of that tour planning. Irfan gave me the financial aid although within himself he also wanna travel with me but when he gave me the financial support he didn't found himself ina position to travel wid me. God damn it Irfan why did u do that :(. I am really sorry for all that, ia m really sorry. But now there is nothing could be happen, now I am thinking seriously that may be there could be a different situation in his presence cuz his companionship suits my luck however, I didn't wanna put him in such troubles which I had to face in that tour. Still I am the most sorry person in this world right now. U are great my friend, irfan lemme say that u are great, I can't have any replacement of u in my whole life, yeah I remember that ur birthday just went pass but I didn't gifted u anything coz I was in my own worries for that tour, but don't worry pal I can forget anything but not u or ur birthday :), just chill and yeah wait till next year lolzzzzzz......
Something about the movie which simply became my one of the favorites name KAL HO NA HO of great SHAHRUKH KHAN, well today I am in a mix mood so lemme discuss everything. That movie may be not that much enjoyable for me if I didn't watch it in a strange city of Lahore and in a very depressed mood. Yes I did watch it in the rain of tears well well well lolzzzzz Zayada to nahi tha na? :) the songz were great especially the theme song kal ho na ho.........
Lemme sing a bit for.....? for my ownself :p

Her ghari badal rahi hai roop zindagi
Ch-haoon hai kabhi, kabhi hai dhoop zindagi
Her pal yahan, g bhar geo
Jo hai samaa~~, kal ho na ho.................


Adios....

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

In the name of Nothing....

1:37 am is the time, and I am just mentioning the time for my own memory, coz I know that the hack of my memory is not very good, so that is why I will keep letting myself remember that its too late for u to sit for internet, anyway, there were surely something which brought me here and that is nothing else but I just had to update my layout, though I got it from blogger.com's site, means nothing of my own except few blogs.
So the day went fine, cuz after utmosta week I met to Irfan, damn it! Irfan the hell of u should meet me daily, coz through some extent I finds something to talk about and something to laugh about, well that is true that there is only u Irfan who makes my mood good decided. As I told u many a times that I don't need any gf in your presence, means u are my gf :) lolzzzz, "Tu nahi sudhray ga".
So karachi's weather is getting cold a bit, tonight is a very cold night, I heard from some pathan that "o khochay quetta ka baraf pigal raha hai" :). Now its only pathan comes in world who knows that how much quetta's weather effect on karachi's weather.
So, 1:44, those few initial lines are telling me that damn it your typing speed is very slow, I know, I know! And I also remember that today I have a paper of ITB and I have no preparation for it, well Allah will help me as eva! ;)
I am writing some stuff which I copied from some Urdu magazine for someone, although I am well aware of the fact that the hard work didn't mean that much, but anyway, I love that and its the must share thing....

"""Before breaking up they were sharing their collecting of memories
1st of all they shared their laughter equally between them
She asked what you going to do with the laughter of your share
He replied. IÂ’ll give it to the innocent children's of orphan house
She was very kind...When it was time to share sadness..
She said.. I wont take any of it..Youu can take all .
And like that she gave all the journeys btw them all the awaited years.. all the seasons of autumn, lonely evenings of winters.. and said now you got to know that I am not avaricious!
He happily said please give me that noon as well when we meet for the very 1st time
And when she agreed. HE put that poor noon on the pile of sadness, season of autumn, journeys and loneliness
And then she asked in a kind manner..Whatt you going to do with all of this?
He satiably replied I am going to keep that share of sadness which you gave me for the rest of my life with me, am going to name those evenings to the old librarian, I got a lamp laying on the edge of my window which always been fueled by a girl who would be waiting for someone's feet beat, going to post all the journeys to her who got her beloved far away! And dieing to meet him....Whilee making faces on sand she said you can have all the past as well.. Abruptly a wave of happiness born on his face and died in his eyes.. He lighten up a cigarette and said you did it alright by giving out your past as well.. She asked what you going to do with it.. Am going to cover-up my self with it he said, for the gingery, lonely noons and cold evenings.. She smiled okay take all the words as well.. He eagerly says I'll distribute all these words among the postmen. But we are left with some romantic songs btw us too. She said take them as well.. All right he satiably said.... What you going to do with them she asked.. Am going to distribute them between shippers and cattle man, going to give to the poor girl who love someone truly, madly and deeply.. AND LIKE THIS THEY keep SHARING THE MOMENTS FOR ALL DAY LONG...."""""


Adios.....
1:53 am

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

Another day went passed
Quite tiresome day that was, though 21 minutes are not enough to call yesterday an old day, but still, anyway
I was reading emails not new one, but that was almost of 2 years back, I never can imagine that one day some will say to me that the hack of u fahad didn't spend two years in love) lolzzzzzzzzzzz
That was nice, I'll never forget any single word in fact I can never forget......
Anyway, thingz of this type will keep going I know but just wid life, it'll stop in fact everything 'll stop when aunt death will come.........lolzzzzzz
Hey reader don't mind any of me, cuz I am writing everything for my own self, hmmmmm first of all I know that no one have any type of interest with My daily diary
One thing for today I went to sea side alone after quite some time, was enjoying the waves and the new lights placed at the shore :), when I start my car to the way back two guys asked for lift and they told me that they don't have a single rupee in their pocket but still they have to go to zamzama street, I gave them lift, they further informed me that one of them have a date and his girl friend is waiting for him :), they were looking from good families but when they offer me weed in the end, goodness me lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, "kiddo I hate this thing", that's all I said to them :), may God bless them. Actually this is nothing else but development sometimes force ppl to cross the limits, now look at those young boys they were hardly of 17 to 18 years but they are moving with the society (according to them). Well I don't agree to u Rafay (name of one), u have to have some positive thinking. And mind u Rafay dating at 10 of night is also notta good thing........
Anyway, I swear I really don't have anything to do wid any act of urs, Rafay
So forget abt him, this is Karachi.
Right now I am listening to Tatu, stars is the song's name.
Good one, that is.
Anyway, mom just passed me a glass of milk this is a signal that I should run for bed now :)
Adios....
Tatu in the end
How did we ever go this far
U touched my hand and start the car
and for the first time in my life, I am crying
are we in space? Do we belong
some place where no one calls it wrong
and like the stars we burn away....... The milzzzzz

Sunday, December 14, 2003

ZZZzzzZZzzzZZzzzzzz......
Quite sleepy day was today! Still some hours to go and I am wishing that may I be able to pass these hours with eyes open.
Last night was so tiresome, as I had to attend a wedding ceremony of my friend's cousin's sister's wedding :), quite long gap of invitation that was, anyways, I still got a very good reception and attention, which was enough for me, alongwith some two "Qulfees" I ate all in all which easily could be known as Memon's specialty for wedding parties :).
Anyway, some wise saying is utmost right that Memons are very Kanjoos Makhi Choos, cuz yesterday night there were the wedding party of two brothers in a same day and in a same hall :) lolzzzzz
Hmmmmm, nothing special today as I spend my whole day in eating and reading newspapers actually I have paper to give tomorrow that is why I was reading newspaper to avoid the tension of upcoming paper :)
So, the current news are that Saddam Hussain has been escorted by American Army and the news has been confirmed by number of people. Well shhhhh... I don't believe them, don't know why? But it may be or it may be not a fake news, well ALLAH knows better bandah knows nothing
So Adios!

Pehlay aati thi haal-e-dil pay hasi
Ab kissi baat per nahi aati.........

Saturday, December 13, 2003

MAAAAaaaaaa I am hungry.......
I am just home, just went to the electronics market, had to buy new cell fone and guess what i ve buy? Ericson T28 :p, lolzzzzz. So that is a story of my downfall from Nokia 7650 to Ericson T28, lemme laugh on what i ve done for nothing else but for someone.....
Anyway, i know why i sell out my 7650 at a low cost cuz i was in need of some money, few days back cuz the tour to lahore at my own expense was not an easy thing, anyway, i am still happy wid Ericson....
Lemmeeee sayyyy Ericsonnnnnn I love u.. :p
When i was in the market i was feeling that those damn sleeping mouse have a holiday today that is why they are playing basketball in my stomach, so right now i am having my late lunch at 6:15 of teh evening and doing my favorite work that is writing......
Anyway, paperz are going fine, on monday i have stats but i am sitting in the front of my pc and doing all that wandering stuff..
I am trying hard to concenterate fully on blogger.com, but the hell of internet is not letting me be regular, anyway, ppl always seems wishing dis and that, right now i am wishing that may someday i be able to writing regular with no intervals..... Allah will help me.
So, right now i am in some strange mood, what to do? hmmmm......
Yes, i can write some from my own diary, i wrote many things along time ago, seems to me that this is a perfect place for them to be, so here they are....
1. I wanna write some, but i guess that words are not suitable to represent feelings.
2. I want to write her name but i guess i don't have right to write her name.
3. I had hundreds of questions and i would like to have their answers in your voice, but.....
4. Whenever i walks at the shore of sea barefeeted, i wish that the marks of feets which i am leaving behind must not be alone, even your marks of feet should be with mine ones. But what every wish is to be completed?
5. I tried to hard to find my world in the word "Hope", but i got nothing. You know that words are lier, feelings rather can never die.
6. My luck gave me everything. But in the end of that everything I was unsucessful.
7. For once, just for once, atleast she should ask me by smiling "That dear can you die for me"......... lolz Yahi to tum nay mujh say nahi kaha....
8. I have given so much importance to your memories, just imagine if i would have u...

AAj phir say lahu tapka hai in baijaan aankhoon say
Aaj phir say koi yaad aya hai, rulanay kay liye..........

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

Karachi Karachi Hai
I am back and with lots of happenings. Good one and bad ones too, but bad ones overcomes everything, anyway.
I went to Lahore on third day of eid, just had to meet a friend. Besides that I also had to meet my relatives there, the tour was fantastic brought many stories, but its really not a necessary thing that I would share all of them here, although I am really missing a thing or someone who could listen that what happened to me in that tour.
Anyway, something about Lahore. The great city and undoubtedly one of the most developed city of Pakistan, don't know what they have in mind but they are keep constructing the city (I am talking about government). I mean lahoris are already well known for their eating habit and well, food streets, May God help them, seems to me that the day is not far when all lahoris will explode. Lolzzz don't mind any lahori, I am also a lahori basically, but "kuch Khuda ka khauf kero yaar".
I don't mean to stop eating but don't u guys think that 1 food street was enough :). Anyway, good old Meenar, Shahi mosque and Qilla, Fortress Stadium and race course. These are very few names of many places. One can spend a whole month visiting these places and when start packing the stuff the one would surely say that "O' yar, Data Darbar tay waikhiya he nai" :). (excuses from punjabis).
I actually missed my city very much, coz that was of my childhood when I first landed in Karachi and now I only feel like that I never can leave the city, coz of the smell of sea. Sea really attracts me towards itself, I never feel like I can leave the city Karachi and can go far from here, baqool someone "Yahin pay jeena, yahin pay merna" :).
One very strange thing that I actually wanted Lahore to keep my heart but Lahore didn't, it broke my heart like nothing. Ahh if my heart meant to broke then it must be in my own place, in my own city. I could easily recovers from it, but just look it brakes in strange atmosphere of strange city, anyway.
I've bring many things from Lahore, some memories, many prays, some unforgettable moments and yeah offourse some gifts. I will never forget each and every moment which i had spent there. Ahhh Fahad who cried for the first time at the time of leaving Lahore's land. Anyway, I know that still my tears are not that much valuable for anyone. So still many things but Noorie at the moment singing me a lullaby and already its 21 mins passed 12 of night, so I think leave some for some other time.
In the end I must say that Lahore, Lahore hai, but waves containing love of Karachi's sea don't have any other thing like itself. So in a single voice "Karachi Karachi Hai" :).
Bye for now.